I know I promised to post photos of two (maybe three) fantastic homes I have been working on. And I will. But for some of us mamas, school only started last week and for some this week or after labor day. This is a tender time not only for kids, but for mamas too. I had time management anxiety and tears a good 3 out of 5 days last week. It is transition time. That time when you have mountains to climb but you aren’t in that groove yet. I forget about this required transition time and I am hard on myself and crater when its not seamless. I know we are all trying to get back in a groove, start projects, get going on things at home, etc… But before I start sharing homes that look perfect, with unlimited budgets, none of which are true but it can seem that way some times, I want to talk about some other things going on with me. And maybe you too. And I want to encourage you to be gentle with yourself as we enter the fall. YOU ARE NOT ALONE, God sees you and He will order our days and schedules and lives. Fabric can wait, tile can wait. First take some deep breaths and sit with Him. (preaching to myself here but maybe its for you too)
So first off (in that vein of STILLNESS) I have been reading this. And it. is. good. stuff. I have stacks of books and honestly don’t read many of them all the way through (ok most I don’t read completely, blame it on grad school and a bad skimming habit that developed, it happens when you are a history major and they give you a million books A WEEK). Anyway, this book is good. All the way to the end! And not only because it’s saying “slow down” and “you need margin” buzzwords that are the “it” thing right now to talk about instead of “hustle” blah blah. No, this book is different, it’s more than that. Why? Because she shares so raw and PRACTICAL about how it feels and how hard it is to actually slow down and sit in silence. To stop the madness. To start to say no to even some good things. And what it looks like and how ugly and difficult it really is. And why we need it. And that we are not alone. Busyness truly is killing so many of us. We must slow down. Shauna goes and digs deeper than anyone I have read on this topic. THANK YOU SHAuNA NIEQUIST! You have helped save me from myself. It is hard, thank you for saying it takes YEARS. It is not overnight.
And this book.
Again WHY? Aren’t there tons of bloggers writing books and sharing their stories? Being real and authentic. Yep and I am sure many are good and many are so so and I have not read them all but THIS ONE . . . IT. IS. A. MUST. At least for me and I dare say for many of you that have been through anything tough, and face it, that is ALL OF US for the most part right?! I’ve read and admired Edie for years, met her once and seen her beauty and glow and even tasted her fudge and loved her blog! Yep drinking the Kool-aid all the way but that did not prepare me for her book. And how again, it made me feel. NOT ALONE. Sure Edie’s walk and struggle hasn’t been the same as mine but it’s a story of beauty from ashes and God’s faithfulness and that WE ARE NOT ALONE. It is a raw, real, encouraging word. I think that is what we are all looking for. It’s what I get from Brene Brown, and my brilliant friend Whitney English and Donald Miller. And its the message of the Gospel too. EMPATHY, encouragement, community (there is that buzzword but its the truth, its a good word). and most important. HOPE.
You have a story. I have a story
You want be loved. I want to be loved. And Seen.
You are not alone.
God sees you. Others feel pain too.
Things aren’t perfect. Not at your house but not even in other homes. Even the ones that seem perfect.
It is going to be okay. Even beautiful again.
I am not a writer, or a Bible teacher or even a certified ASID designer, just a pilgrim like you trying to raise kids, and make a home, and figure out what I am doing. And it’s ugly sometimes. A lot in fact.
Most days, I want to do exactly what Hunter is doing right here. Crawl back in bed. Or just look at the ball. Or send a text or pick up my phone before I pray or think or just sit and be.
{seriously he laid there the longest just looking at that ball}
And so, I just had to write this post before I start showing house photos with watermarks and carrying on like nothing has happened or is happening. So much is. With you. with me. I still struggle a lot since my divorce. A LOT. And honestly, I struggled before. A lot. And now, the world seems crazier than ever before. I know you don’t come to my blog to know that but just….please, please be gentle with yourself sisters. I am trying to and its hard with so much noise in the world. So much to do. But we have to keep trying to SLOW IT DOWN. and Love more, hope more.
I will be back with pretty houses next time I promise. In the meantime I will be trying to . . .
Oh and why the transfer paper? Well that was my amazon delivery last Sunday. I immediately texted Camille to show her my bounty..Edie’s book (early? I thought it wasn’t even released yet and I was not on some special list, i just pre-ordered it on on amazon?? An amazon angel clearly carried it to me early). Also in the box, Camille’s recommended transfer paper that she blogged about THREE YEARS ago here and I just now purchased! Now I can get with the times and make my own pretty chalkboards. Perfect chalkboard = perfect house right? Nah but I am still loving this transfer paper! I actually did this myself with the magical paper!! That is not a pin/photo above, well the graphic I traced it from is a pin likely (don’t remember for sure just grabbed it off of a pinboard) but my actual real life hand and chalk did this (along with the magical paper), counts right?
Have a good week y’all!
{Stay tuned for more on marble counter alternatives, new portfolio photos, more on recent travels, struggles and studio happenings)
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